Archive for January 25th, 2008
I’m not one to make New Year’s resolutions. Instead I typically take January as a time to reflect on what the coming year will entail. This annual ritual has been relatively simple for the last several years, mostly due to large events in my life that were set to transpire. In 2007 I was due to be married. In 2006 I was due to graduate from my master’s program. In 2005 I was due to propose to Megan. In 2004 I was due to start grad school. And so on and so on.
2008 definitely has a big event, but one with a more ambiguous meaning. In September of this year I am due to turn 30. While this certainly is a significant occasion, it is one that requires absolutely nothing from me. No matter what I do this year, I will turn 30. There is nothing to prepare for, no effort is required. If I go on a pizza and beer diet this year, I will be a 30 year old fattie. If I shave my head and embrace Buddhism, I will be a 30 year old monk. If my name is finally selected from the sexual reassignment surgery waiting list this year, I will be a 30 year old woman.
For the first time in quite a while, this year will truly be whatever I chose to make it. Accordingly, I have spent the last few weeks trying to figure out exactly what it is that I want. This proved to be more challenging than I imagined. After several weeks of contemplation I still struggled to find the meaning that was eluding me. I just wasn’t able to focus. Last nite I had a moment of clarity and what I wanted became tremendously apparent.
Turning 30 signifies to me a need to focus. I need to really focus on what it is I want out of life. I need to focus more on the big picture. I need to focus on the aspects of my life that are easy to ignore. What I want and what I need in my life is more focus. Therefore, I have decided to dedicate 2008 as The Year Of Focus for me.
While I’m not sure what exactly this will entail, I do have some ideas already formulated. First and foremost this year I intend to continue with my focus on exercising and staying healthy. To that end I have set a goal for myself. I aim to have a flat stomach by the time I turn 30. I don’t really care how many pounds I need to lose; I don’t have an ideal weight. I just want a flat stomach again.1
I have many other thoughts on where I need to focus, but I will save that discussion for another day. For now I will simply say that I hope this year will be a major success just like The Year Of The Captain. I intend to do everything in my power to ensure that The Year Of Focus is a victorious one.
1 Or as Kevin Spacey put it in American Beauty: I just want to look good naked.