Archive for March 5th, 2014
Bad news week continues, now with even more death! As you may have read yesterday, I alluded to the fact that there were 3 deaths around me last year but I did not mention the third. At this point it is still tough to discuss this event, but I want to mention it so I can continue to move past it. Here it goes.
In November of 2013 I came home on a Wednesday afternoon to discover the body of my neighbor. He committed suicide and I was the person who had to relay this information to the police. It was an intensely traumatic event for me, on that is still affecting me. I have had a difficult time trying to erase the image from my mind. The entire experience is a crazy story, but it’s one that I’m not really ready to share.
I will say that in one way it was a relief. Prior to this event I had been preoccupied with thoughts of death. My experience has shown that the old adage of death coming in threes is often true. After the death of my grandmother and my cousin I quickly started feeling that one more shoe was about to drop. This feeling stayed with me throughout the year like a storm cloud hanging over my head. Somedays it was as though I could feel death near me; it was dreadful. So while discovering my neighbor was a horrific event, it did lift the dread that I was experiencing. That was a welcome relief.
If 13 is an unlucky number, then that’s how I will always remember 2013. For me it was a year of tragic deaths and personal deaths. Combined with the two deaths in my wife’s family in 2012 it made for an emotionally crippling period of my life. But since November I have begun to slowly move on with my life. I no longer feel like a storm is following me around. Today fees like the cleanup after the storm and I’m glad it is finally finished. I’ve accepted that death can come at any time and now I am ready to talk about something else. So check back tomorrow for more bad news that I promise doesn’t involve death!